K

Meeting with K is often a valuable experience. We do not have interests in common. We do not live near to each other. We have entirely different occupations. We have different ideologies about this world. However somehow I start to understand why we are so connected. We are connected by unconditional acceptances, knowing what to do to make the another one to feel comfortable, and unlimited patience. I really understand how friends should be like after practicing together for 13 years.

周日於西部談情

很久沒有在週日下午到電影中心看電影，Kubrick 滿滿都是人，吃的，看書的，人多但氣氛鬆容，竟真的閒情逸緻。

看Coen brothers 的True Grit，我看高安兄弟的電影的經驗，從來是看完不感到什麼，看完幾小時才看出味道來，那冷冷的開場，招牌奇情的黑色幽默，神性角度俯視，還有扭轉No Country for Old Men 大嘆老人無用的命題，Old Men 萬歲！當Mattie 去找酒鬼Rooster時，Rooster 何其糟糕，當Rooster 射不到酒瓶和粟米餅時，我們都只好苦笑，最後當Rooster 殺四賊時，我的眼腔裡就湧出熱淚。還有Mattie 的寸咀，太令人又愛又恨，你地成班男人都唔係我呢個女人把口對手，去死吧！

還有是，我這個多心的人，竟然覺得True Grit 是我有生以來看過最浪漫的愛情片，我知我幼稚——最後那兩幕，Rooster 給Mattie 割手吸血，Rooster 千里走單騎送Mattie 去找救亡，他不顧一切的一刀一刀刺著馬，不惜一切，漫天星空，跑到最後馬死掉了，一個人捧著Mattie 走到筋疲力竭，最後Mattie的女臂沒留著，Rooster 沒等她就一個人走了，再也沒有找Mattie 拿賞金，就此消失了，Mattie 沒嫁，Rooster 竟最後到了馬戲團，來信請Mattie 去看表演，沒想到Rooster 早三天去世了，而Mattie 將屍體領回家安葬，年年拜祭……淡淡幾筆，看得仔細，越淡然的事情越美麗，那是不能言喻的默契，這種情懷是有facebook、iphone、sms 的年代不能明白的。

Solitude

Not many HKIFF movies that interest me. I'll mail the order on Mon. So far I've chosen only 6......
Very productive evening. Completed my ppt for presentation on Monday. Actually I have started doing it for long time already, but I hv OCD in amending it. I've also re-writen my resume and sent out my first job application!
Very late at night. I'm reading The Stranger by Camus and listening to Tom Waits. Enjoy myself.

年頭

年頭總是有幾個指定動作：搞蚊型製作，以及HKIFF，今年HKIFF 又不是十分有驚喜，不過十套電影應該「走唔甩」。
近來radiohead 出碟，聽了又聽，咁有十幾年囉。
看了「哥本哈根」，重溫uncertainty principle，簡直恍如隔世，不過人的軌跡總有少許前因可追，屬於科學的uncertainity principle 跟哲學不是很像嗎？
今年年頭開得好，希望快樂一整年。

感覺良好

怎麼說好呢，胃痛了很久，好了不少，不知怎地開始人思變，要做的都要做。

Just to make me happy

Just a brief list of stuffs that I like these days:

My Little Airport
梁文道
My final year project
Existentialism
The pancakes
董啟章
Mindfulness
Yalom
Rollo May
Drama Rehearsal
Sleeping

Racing thoughts

So fortunate these months. Having the opportunities to learn from great teachers in town. My thoughts keep racing despite I have done my sitting meditation. reading lots of stuff now. Really energetic!

激動！

我看書看到好激動！yalom！我愛你！我終於搵到一個thinker係同我搭通天地線！！not humanistist，not social constructivist，而係existentist！！天呀！我真的如我預期中發癲了，開始激動到胃痛……OMG，究竟，um，我是否真的要讀being and time？！