"Anyone who cannot come to terms with his life while he is alive needs on hand to ward off a little his despair over his fate—he has little success in this—but with the other hand he can note down what he sees among the ruins, for he sees different (and more) things than do the others; after all, dead as he is in his own lifetime, he is the real survivor. This assumes that he does not need both hands, or more hands than he has, in his struggle against despair."--Kafka



Wednesday, December 29, 2010

十年前我不做的,現今都做了

食薑類食品
種植
手作咭
煮食

也沒有什麼可說的,只是真的不想與自己鬥氣了,想找新生活,我以往我討厭吃薑,但現在竟不太厭惡。新生活不難建立,但怎樣將我這種被侵佔得體無完膚的舊生活變得純正澄明呢,我的舊生活那麼美好,但不經不覺間我喜歡的所有都被纏上血管,勉強拉開全是血,拉不開的,只好任由血管漸漸壞死,乾巴巴的爬在我鍾愛的物事上,如廢墟牆上枯死的藤蔓,我當初實在不應讓我這種清靜的生活被人踐踏成這個樣子的,淨化那麼難,那麼辛苦,我想告訴全世界這些都是我所鍾愛的,我希望跟它們一生一世相處,就請不要騷擾我好嗎。

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