"Anyone who cannot come to terms with his life while he is alive needs on hand to ward off a little his despair over his fate—he has little success in this—but with the other hand he can note down what he sees among the ruins, for he sees different (and more) things than do the others; after all, dead as he is in his own lifetime, he is the real survivor. This assumes that he does not need both hands, or more hands than he has, in his struggle against despair."--Kafka



Saturday, November 27, 2010

Freudian slip

就在禪坐後分享,我用手扮流水,由高處流向低處,就說,那是Freudian slip,好好笑,察覺不到,要人講番,才意識到完完全全是想休息的徵狀,原來呢,真的沒有一丁點時間給自己。我原來真的好想早日辭工去也,好好地休息,做些我想做的事情。

就在給人講中Freudian slip 當晚,我失眠了,腹部疼痛,我知道不是肉體現象,而是知道是思考跟身體不在一起的反應,哈。
我知道我是人肉發電機,有很多事情我希望放下,但又不能這樣做,真的不能這樣做嗎?一部份的還可以吧。

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