"Anyone who cannot come to terms with his life while he is alive needs on hand to ward off a little his despair over his fate—he has little success in this—but with the other hand he can note down what he sees among the ruins, for he sees different (and more) things than do the others; after all, dead as he is in his own lifetime, he is the real survivor. This assumes that he does not need both hands, or more hands than he has, in his struggle against despair."--Kafka



Tuesday, October 13, 2009

沒有長遠快樂感

前日收到一個突如其來的電郵,開心了老半天,其實真的很應該高興的,而且是應該高興很久的,然後就開始感憂慮了,要填表,要準備,在這種忙得想死的日子裡,竟然要我做額外工作,就覺得是苦差了。無窮無盡的工作,使我連開心一下都沒有時間,就要埋首工作,唉唉,想來我都本不是悲觀的人,可是真的被工作打敗了,感覺生活好像在踩單車,要不停地踩才行,就算中途有美好風景,只能看一眼,然後就要專心踩單車。

太期待十二月到臨,到時我要拼命休息和輕鬆一下了。

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